August 15th, 2017
I’m so incredibly tired of it all.
Go onto Youtube. Facebook. Twitter. Instagram. etc. and what do you see? Fake smiles, fake acknowledgment, fake reality- wrapped in a little bow with endorsements and brand deals as the main course in a long, tedious meal you didn’t know you were apart of until it was too late.
Buy this. Buy that.
I don’t care. and I’m tired of it.
I want, no crave, reality. As it is. Not told to me because people have managers behind them pushing them to endorse the latest thing. Have you seen that shitty strapless bra thing? Puh-leeze.
Aren’t you tired of it?
I already know what’s out there. If I wanted to buy something, I’d go to a store. I don’t want products shoved down my throat 24/7. Maybe that’s cynical- I understand why people do it. They need to pay bills. But if you decide to do so, you also shouldn’t be advertising “realness” in your videos. Because it’s not. You’ve become part of the very thing that shapes our society- consumerism. Which I understand is needed, contradictory right? Didn’t say it wasn’t. Just said I’m tired of it.
I don’t know what the solution would be, all I know is that I can’t stand seeing it anymore.
Kinda started this on a great note, huh? Well, if you’re still reading this I truly appreciate you. I know I haven’t posted in a while and tbh I wasn’t sure if I wanted to continue writing on here. There’s so much going on right now in my life- not that anyone cares, but still. I’m going to try harder.
I understand sometimes my writing is all over the place. Random. Odd. Etc. But I really do try to use this as my outlet. I try to not edit my writing on here much at all. I just wanted a place where I could put all of my thoughts and feelings out there. And what prompted me to make this post was that I was so TIRED of it all. Not just what I’ve written above. Everything. Life, work, family, friends, and society. (don’t get butthurt, you’d know if I was referring to you.) I hate seeing all the negativity, even though I know part of me does contribute to it. Contradictory, I know. It has turned me into such a negative person as of late.
I wish I didn’t feel things so deeply. I really am trying to just put my thoughts out there, so if they happen to be negative I’m sorry. Not sorry of who I am, but sorry that you seem to believe that life has to be positive all the time. That’s not reality.
“All human unhappiness comes from not facing reality squarely, exactly as it is.” – Buddha.
Now, I’m not 100% sure the Buddha said that. I just recently started getting into Buddhism- Zen Buddhism to be more exact, and I haven’t researched that quote, but I thought it was eloquently written anyway, even if it wasn’t real. I resonate with it mostly because it’s the absolute truth. Instead of dwelling on things, you need to accept what is. Not what you want a situation to be.
I have to keep reminding myself that, and not get my hopes up for something. Or try to analyze a situation for more than it is.
I’m also trying to write more. Not just these blogs, but more novelas or full on novels. I’ll probably post some rough copies on here soon.
Thanks for reading.